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Deep Down True

February 17, 2011

It took me a little while to appreciate this book.  A recently single mother of two finding her way on her own and most importantly discovering herself. Throughout the first half of the book I thought she was insipid and spineless and wanted to just smack her. You see, I am an Amazon Van Houten [...]

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Porn Slots

April 6, 2010

I love playing the slots in Vegas. Specifically I enjoy the penny slots. I remember the early 90′s when pennies could only be found downtown (before the Fremont street experience) and they actually used the arm to pull down, not to mention the filthy coins. The onset of paper payouts came along with the onset [...]

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Bags Out at Seven

March 31, 2010

Bags Out at Seven Anyone who has traveled on a tour bus recognizes that statement. This is a book that was given to me by Uncle Marcel, when he read it, he said, he thought of mom.  So did I. It is a book containing vignettes by a tour operator covering her travels throughout a [...]

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Her Hands

March 26, 2010

I remember the slight wrinkles on the  warm brown skin from years of  sun. I remember vividly the tremble that would happen just before she would cry. I first noticed this as a small girl in Jacque and Andre’s basement. There was laughter and music all around us, but someone said something or a trigger [...]

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Look at This Studio Filled With Fabulous Prizes

January 8, 2010

I can clearly picture in my head, little 4 or 5 year old Matthew spouting this opening to Wheel of Fortune.  I don’t know if it was the wheel itself that he liked, but I do know he knew that opening spot on. To say that, I don’t believe there to be a person in [...]

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BINGO

January 3, 2010

When mom would come visit, she and I would take a bus out to the San Manuel Indian Bingo.  We would catch the bus around 3 here in Glendale, the ride would take about an hour out to Highland, play bingo for a few hours and then be home around midnight. All it was, was [...]

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Waiting

December 31, 2009

I was corrected yesterday, that 12/29 is not the anniversary of mom’s death.  That she died at 12:01 AM on 12/30. Yes, that is true, today is the anniversary, but yesterday that was the worst day. Because as of 12:01AM 12/30/07, mom was pain free and hugging Karl and Matt. But from the morning of [...]

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2 years

December 29, 2009

How do you measure time? 2 years 24 months 104 weeks 731 days 17,520 minutes 1,051,200 seconds They go by in the blink of an eye. Except for today This one day each year This day goes on forever. I miss you mommy.

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Home

November 19, 2009

Home is where the Heart is. A truer statement has never been stated.  The house I came home to last night is no longer my mom’s house, that much is true.  Everything is changed, not for the worse but just different.  The paint colors, the decor, the air, is different. But the heart, her heart, [...]

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Lights Out!

November 18, 2009

Image via Wikipedia It is the rainy season in Los Angeles now, not that any rain will actually fall, but technically it is the rainy season. I remember one rainy season mom was in town and at the first sign of lightning and sound of thunder my kids and I started gathering candles. She looked [...]

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