Death

It Gets Better, Then it Gets Worse and Then it Gets Better Again

February 22, 2012

You may remember (or learned about it in History Class) Black Monday for the crash of the Stock Market.  But I remember it for different reasons. October 19, 1987.  I was 19 years old.  I was done. My mom had custody of Marisa, I lost my apartment, my chance at reconciling with Marisa’s father were [...]

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Grief

August 11, 2010

Monday of this week marked the day Matthew would have been 27 years old. This coming May 6th will mark the 20th anniversary of his death. There are 5 so called steps to grieving: Denial and Isolation Anger Bargaining Depression Acceptance Really?  Acceptance?  Is that what is comes to? But it doesn’t end there.  When [...]

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Ashes to Ashes – literally

May 6, 2010

Waterfalls hold special meaning in my family.  As kids I don’t recall any big family vacations mostly weekend trips to various campgrounds and waterfalls throughout Michigan, Canada and the Midwest.  We hit everything from Tahquamenon which is huge, to Scott falls which is a trickle on the side of the road. I have memories of [...]

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Remembering Maddie

April 7, 2010

One year ago today, I was working an election. When it was over I went to Outback to pick up dinner for Kathy and I. Sitting waiting to get out food, I checked my Twitter updates. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw the tweet that said Maddie had passed away. I sat quietly [...]

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Waiting

December 31, 2009

I was corrected yesterday, that 12/29 is not the anniversary of mom’s death.  That she died at 12:01 AM on 12/30. Yes, that is true, today is the anniversary, but yesterday that was the worst day. Because as of 12:01AM 12/30/07, mom was pain free and hugging Karl and Matt. But from the morning of [...]

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